Friday, May 28, 2010

Completely Random

I'm just going to write whatever pops up in to my head and let's see what happens....

OK, Chickenhead's last day of school was yesterday. Yay! Even though he left early because he was sick, it was a day for celebration. Sure, he decided to celebrate by sleeping off a fever, but the Husband and I celebrated by discussing all of the dippy parents we wouldn't be dealing with next year, and the general decline of our school district. Childish and immature, why yes, thanks for noticing.

In other Chickenhead news, I'm getting ready to plan his birthday party. Because of some people in my husband's family, planning this party has involved hand holding, eye rolling, tongue biting and negotiation skills worthy of a U.N. ambassador. I'm at the point where I'm saying 'screw it', and just focusing on the things that will make the birthday boy happy. The Husband and I are betting that the people we are feeling pressured to bend over backwards for won't even show up. I'm getting tired of suffering the stupid people in my life!

We're gearing up for our garage sale in a couple of weeks. The inside of the Casa looks like Fred Sanford's front yard, but hopefully I'll rake in some cash. I've got a little bit of everything and still have more to go through. Hopefully I'll get that done this weekend.

June is going to be a busy month! We're celebrating our Memorial Day with a cookout at Grump Manor next weekend, so that certain family members can attend. Then, the garage sale, the weekend after that is scrapping with my cult-sisters and Father's Day, and then there's Chickenhead's birthday. Phew! I get tired just thinking about it.

Speaking of thinking, I've given a lot of thought to the baby girl my mom gave up for adoption. I've decided that I'm just going to look at the birth records, and then go from there. A very big part of me wants to find her, but I think that would be very selfish of me. I believe that it will be enough for me to know that she was placed in a family that was able to give her a good life. There are national databases online that I can post the info on, and if she's out there looking, I'll let it be her decision to find me.

I have discovered the joys of iced coffee, thanks to my lover, Keurig! It has an iced coffee setting, so I can brew right in to a glass filled with ice, add some sugar and milk, and I'm set! And I'm hooked! Hopelessly addicted!! I plan on drinking it all weekend. I should be able to get a LOT done if I'm that jacked on caffeine!

I'm hoping for a quiet, peaceful weekend. Watch it get all jacked up! I hope you have a wonderful Memorial Day!

Friday, May 14, 2010

Somewhere Out There...

Ok, I first visited this subject back in August, and while it never left my mind completely, it kind of got put on the back burner.

From the time I found out that my mom did have a baby that she gave up for adoption, until the time she passed, that baby was never far from my mind. So many times, I came so close to asking my mom about it, but I couldn't bring myself to do it. She was so sick, and some days she just wasn't herself. I was so afraid of upsetting her that I chose to play it safe and say nothing. I have a feeling that towards the end of her life, my mom thought about it often. I don't know for certain, but on more than one occasion, she said that God must be punishing her for something terrible that she did. She said that God must hate her for some reason. She felt that her failing health was divine payback for what had to have been a difficult choice for her.

So now that it's been six months since her death, I find myself thinking about this baby again. Of course, she's not a baby now, she would be a 32-yr old woman. I have located the birth records for the hospital where my mom gave birth, and pretty much all it would take to get some of the details is filling out a form and taking a short ride over to the hospital where they are kept now.

For now, all I really want is to know her date of birth, and if possible, if she was adopted. I hope that she was adopted by a family that loved her and gave her everything that my mom wouldn't have been able to give her. I hope that she had a happy childhood filled with birthday parties and sleepovers and first dates and proms and everything that means so much to a young girl. I hope she went to college, found someone to love, and has a family of her own.

I don't know if I want to meet her, but at the same time, I wonder, has she tried to find her birth mother? Has she wondered about the woman who gave her up? Does she have questions about her biological family? The last thing I would ever want to do is contact her out of the blue when that may not be something that she wants, but the curiosity is great. I have the form filled out, it's just a matter of getting in the car and taking that drive...

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

So Anyway...

Every day, I think about something I want to write or vent about on here, and I never get around to it. There has been so much going on lately, in my life and in the world. I think for tonight, I'll just tackle the easy stuff!

Chickenhead is almost done with 4th grade. Today in class, the split up the boys and the girls and you know what that means...yep, THE MOVIE. I asked him if he had any questions about anything, and he said no, but that he thought it would be really cool to have a 10-ft. penis. How am I supposed to respond to that? So I just said nothing. I think it's better that way.

Friday, he and The Husband are going on a field trip with the homeschooling group he'll be a part of next year. I am really excited about this! It's through Lawrence Virtual Schools, and there are around 1,000 kids across Kansas right now that are part of the program. They are part of the program that I wrote about a couple of weeks ago. The best thing about LVS is they supply not only all the books and class supplies that we'll need, but also a laptop! All for $97 for the entire school year!! Chickenhead is looking forward to the field trip, and I think if he gets to hang out with the other kids, he'll be even more excited about homeschooling.

Let's see, what else...Mother's Day was bittersweet. I had a lovely weekend, but it was very hard without my mom. I cried most of the weekend. When I wasn't crying, we went and got a new dryer, I bought some clothes at Kohl's and we had a yummy MD dinner at Jose Peppers. It was rough, though, not buying a card for her this year. I sat down to make cards for my friends, but my not heart just wasn't in it.

And so, that's my life in a nutshell right now. Nothing too terribly exciting going on at the moment. Sometimes, that's a good thing!